Hello world.
As I’ve mentioned, the illness has kept me from writing recently. Well, I haven’t recovered yet, but I’ve decided to try and keep blogging anyway. Creation is therapeutic, right?
The last few weeks have been difficult and strange. I’ve been off work on sick leave, so I’m at home during the day, which is surreal. I feel guilty for not working, but I honestly don’t think I could right now. So I suppose it’s an irrational guilt.
Even basic things are difficult. Taking a shower is hard. Going to the store feels like climbing a mountain (or at least a really steep hill). But I am still showering – which Betsy appreciates – and still going to the store. Still taking medication every day.
Still obsessed with Avatar: The Last Airbender. Last night Betsy and I finished watching it together – first time for her, second time for me. Really a beautiful show. Has its own wiki, not that I’ve been reading it like a crazy person or anything.
Betsy, my family, and my friends are worried about me. They want to help. I’m very lucky to have so many people in my life who care so much. Unfortunately, I’m not sure how much they can do right now.
I would like to feel normal again. Well, not “normal” – that’s too boring – but as close to normal as I ever was. I am still hopeful this will happen.
Thanks for sticking with me. I’ll do my best to return tomorrow!
Brian D. Buckley 