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This is fan fiction of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel, which were created by Joss Whedon. If you like, you can read my thoughts on the ethics and legality of fan fiction.
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Chapter 19
Illyria spoke up again. âDo you regret what you did?â
A weight settled in Willowâs stomach. Tell the story, get it out, and be done, thatâs all she had wanted. âIâm sorry?â
âYou destroyed a star,â said Illyria. âYou committed the premeditated murder of multiple sentient beings. You drastically reduced your own abilities. You put twenty-one other witches at risk. And you toyed with Lilahâs soul. These are morally questionable activities. Do you regret what you did?â
âNo,â said Willow. âI did what I had to do. It was the right decision.â All around, her friends nodded.
âI agree,â said Illyria.
âOh. Well, umâŚgood?â
âSo why will you not perform the Almada spell?â
Wow. And sheâd thought it was awkward before. Willowâs heart thumped as she searched for the words to respond.
âSomeone help me out,â said Spike. âWhatâs this Almada business?â
âThe Almada spell,â Giles chimed in. âA magical means of reversing certain types of otherwise incurable mental illness.â
âWait,â said Spike. âThereâs a spell that can cure him? Whatâs the catch? Why havenât you done it?â
âGiles told us not to,â said Willow. âWhile he was stillâŚhimself. He thought it was wrong. Too much like cheating death, meddling in dangerous forces, intruding on the sanctity of the mind.â
Spike snorted. âOkay. And? People say stupid things all the time. Doesnât mean you punish them by holding their sanity hostage. I donât even like the guy, but what heâs got, I wouldnât wish on a dung demon.â
âSpike!â Willow snapped.
âHeâs right,â Buffy said quietly.
âI am?â Spike looked over in surprise. âI mean, damn right Iâm right.â
âI never understood why you didnât cure him,â Buffy said. âIt wasnât my decision, so I kept my mouth shut. But I always thought it was wrong to leave him that way.â
âThat is my assessment as well,â said Illyria.
âPretty much,â said Dawn.
âWhat, all of you?â Willow felt like her skin was getting tight. âXander, come on, tell them.â
âSorry, Will, but I vote with the majority. I get what youâre saying, but youâre overthinking it. Thereâs a disease, thereâs a cure. Heâs our friend. What else matters?â
She wanted to hide, to run away, but they were all waiting for an answer. She had to give them an answer.
âItâs not up for a vote,â she said roughly.
âWill â â
âNo, Xander, listen. All of you, listen! This has happened before. Donât you get it? We had this same debate over resurrecting Buffy. Everyone told me to be careful, but what did I do? I ripped her out of heaven. I did that. Giles called me a rank, arrogant amateur, and you know what? He was right.â
âBut here I am,â Buffy said quietly. âBecause of you, Willow. I donât wish I was back in the ground.â
âWhen Tara died,â Willow went on, âyou all know what happened. I did what I wanted, whatever I wanted, because I could. This is about self-control. Itâs about respecting the universe. You donât just wave away the things you donât like. Thatâs not a path you want to start on.â
âI get it,â said Dawn. âBut weâre not talking about ripping anybodyâs skin off, Willow. Weâre trying to heal him. If one of our lab techs found a pill that would cure Giles, youâd give him that. How is magic any different?â
Willow was shaking her head. âNo. No. Iâm not explaining it right, I realize that, but none of you understands. None of you has carried the kind of power that I have. Not even you, Buffy.â
âI have,â said Illyria.
Willow blinked in surprise.
âI was a god among gods for longer than the age of the cosmos,â said Illyria. âI murdered trillions of innocents for pleasure. And when I took over this shell, I killed Winifred Burkle, an intelligent human being.â
Spike smiled sarcastically. âYouâre, um, not really selling the argument, Blue.â
âI did these things because I lacked a conscience,â she continued. âBut I acquired one from Wesley, and from the leftover fragments of Fredâs mind. When Charles Gunn was captured and made to suffer, I ripped a hole between dimensions and brought him back, even though it was the fate he chose for himself. I do not believe I was wrong.â
Head tilt.
âDo you?â
Willow sighed.
It was getting late. Her head hurt, and they faced a battle tomorrow. She wanted to go to bed. The issue had waited ten years. Surely it could wait till morning.
But there, sitting on a rock, alone among friends, squinting at the fire and whispering to himself, was all that remained of Rupert Giles.
She owed him a decision. That much, at least.
âEmily,â she said.
The younger woman jerked, startled. Sheâd been quiet all this time. âMaâam?â
âYou were there when we killed the Partners. You understand power. Now youâre stronger than me, and youâd be the one to cast the spell. Tell me. What do you think we should do?â
Willow thought Emily would hesitate, defer, try to wiggle out of answering. She should have known better. Emilyâs reply came swift and certain.
âIâm game if you are,â she said.
The fire crackled quietly.
After so many years of self-restraintâŚcould she really have been wrong the whole time?
Maybe, sometimes, using the power took more humility than rejecting it.
âAll right,â she said. âLetâs bring him back.â
Chapter 20
They gathered in Buffyâs tent, the entire campfire group. Dawn seated Giles on a folding chair in the center. The rest of them stood before him in a semicircle, Emily at the middle, Willow beside her. Two lanterns provided an eerie light.
Emily produced a small tablet and tapped the screen a number of times till she found what she wanted. âHere it is,â she said. âAlmada.â
She lowered the device. âNot going to lie,â she said, âthis spell makes me pretty nervous. Itâs really complicated, it could go wrong in a hundred ways. Youâre all sure you want me to try? If it fails, it could do nothing, or we could evenâŚlose him.â
It was Dawn who answered. âWeâve already lost him.â
âDo it,â said Buffy.
âYouâll be fine,â said Willow, wondering if the butterflies in her stomach were in everyone elseâs too. âAnd Iâll be right here to help you.â
âOkay,â said Emily. âHere we go.â
She lifted the tablet and read from the screen, chanting in a low voice.
âAnte leves ergo pascentur in aethere cerviâŚâ
A sudden wind tugged at the tent canvas, shaking the structure. Gilesâ mouth fell open. He looked around, startled.
ââŚet freta destituent nudos in litore piscesâŚâ
A cloud of glowing specks gathered and swirled over his head. He gazed up, eyes widening with terror. Panting. Hyperventilating. âThe text is corrupted,â he gasped. âThe volumes are misnumbered. Out of order. Out of order. I cannotâŚI cannot locate the originalâŚâ
Dawn bit her lip in worry. Willow set a hand on Emilyâs shoulder, watching the spellâs invisible lines, offering what support she could.
ââŚante pererratis amborum finibus exsulâŚâ
Wind howled and whirled in the tent now, blowing at their clothes, their hair. The cloud of light over Giles grew brighter. He tried to stand, but some hidden force seemed to push him down. He screamed. Dawn was shouting something, drowned out by the wind. Xander had his arm around her.
Still Emilyâs chanting continued, deep and clear somehow despite the whirlwind.
ââŚaut Ararim Parthus bibet aut Germania TigrimâŚâ
The glowing nebula filled all the air above, nearly blinding them. The lines of magic, which only Willow and Emily could see, curled and twisted around each other, pirouetted and dived.
The air shrieked. A wide gash ripped across the top of the tent. Giles screamed again and again, his gaunt face resembling a skull in the ghostly light. Dawn tried to run toward Emily, but Xander held her back. Buffy just watched, still as a rock, hair flying in the gale.
ââŚquam nostro illius labatur pectore vultus!â
The wind died instantly.
Quick as a blink, the cloud of light rushed into Gilesâ mouth. His eyes flashed yellow and dimmed. His screaming stopped. Silence. He hunched over, quiet and limp.
Dawn leaped forward and knelt beside him. âGiles,â she whispered. âGiles, are you okay? Itâs me. Itâs Dawn. Do you know me? Giles, please. Are you okay? How do you feel?â
âNo oneâŚâ he mumbled.
âWhat? What are you saying?â
âNo one offered me a marshmallow.â
Dawn shook her head. âI donâtâŚâ
âI should have liked a marshmallow,â he said quietly. âNobody offered me one. Even a madman likes a candy.â
Buffy crowed with sudden laughter. âGiles,â she said. âYouâre back? Are you back?â
He looked up now. All around the tent, seeing each one of them. âI feel I might be,â he said, âonly Iâm not sure where Iâve been.â His gaze turned to the Slayer. âBuffy, whatâs going on? Whatâs happened to me?â
âOh, Giles,â she whispered, and they all rushed together then, laughing and crying and talking all at once, hugging each other, hugging him.
Finally Dawn shooed them away. âGive him some room,â she said. âEverybody, just give him a second.â
Giles was frowning. âIâm not sure anyone has answered my question.â
âYou wereâŚsick,â said Dawn. âA kind of dementia. Itâs gradually been getting worse for the last ten years. You were sort of, well, in your own world. We felt like weâd lost you. Do you remember any of it?â
âWell, yes,â said Giles. âMore or less. A bit patchy. But, uh, well then, how did IâŚrecover?â
Dawn opened her mouth to answer, but closed it again.
âWe sort of, umâŚâ Xander trailed off.
âI did it,â said Emily. âI cast the Almada spell on you. I know it goes against your wishes, and Iâm sorry, but â â
âNo,â said Willow, âit was me. I mean, Emily did cast the spell, and she did a fine job, but I take full responsibility. It was my decision.â
âLike hell,â said Xander. âWe all chose this. We all decided together.â
âEven me,â said Spike.
Giles got a pained expression. âYou let Spike vote?â
âWell, thatâs a fine how-do-you-do,â said Spike.
Giles glanced at him, did a double-take. âYouâre human.â
âYeah, thatâs right. Which means you lot canât just off me whenever you feel the urge. Youâd have, ehâŚâ He searched for the word, then snapped his fingers. âQualms.â
âYouâd be surprised what Iâm willing to do,â said Buffy.
Spike leered at her. âNo, I have a pretty good idea.â
âOne more word â â
Giles looked wearily at Willow and Emily. âI donât suppose you could bring the dementia back?â
Just then a tall, red-haired Slayer entered and found Buffy. âCommander, I have news.â
âNot now,â Buffy snapped.
âBut Commander, weâve captured a vampire.â
âLieutenant, I told you â !â Buffy paused as her brain caught up to her mouth. âA vampire? Here? In the middle of the desert?â
âIt approached us with a white flag, maâam. It wanted to be captured. Itâs asking to speak to you. We can kill it if you like, but I thought you should know.â
Buffy nodded slowly. âAll right, thank you, Lieutenant. Sit tight for now. Iâll be out in a little while to examine it.â
âMaâam.â The Slayer left.
âYouâre needed,â said Giles. âYou ought to go now.â
âWe just got you back, Giles. I canât leave you already.â
âYou donât have to.â He stood up. âWe shall go together.â
âGiles!â said Buffy. âIt could be dangerous. Besides, youâreâŚâ
âIâm what?â said Giles. âToo old? Too feeble? Rubbish. You are my Slayer, and I am your Watcher, and we shall investigate this matter together. Xander, Willow, youâre with us. The rest of you, stay here and try to keep out of trouble. Come on, everyone, Iâm not getting any younger!â
He walked out of the tent.
âWell, you heard the man,â said Buffy, and followed him out. Willow and Xander looked at each other.
âScrew that!â said Dawn. âI had to wipe drool off his chin, Iâm not taking his orders now. Iâm going to go see a freakinâ vampire!â
âIf sheâs going, Iâm bloody well not staying here,â said Spike.
âI also wish to observe,â said Illyria.
âFine,â said Willow. âLess talking, more walking.â They all followed Giles together.
Emily brought up the rear. âSo, yeah, youâre welcome, everybody! Difficult spell, very dangerous, healed a beloved friend? No problem. Happy to do it. Your gratitude is my reward! Anyone?â
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